Last week I gave my oldest son a “bear hug” and left him at school to brave his first day of the 4th grade. For years now we’ve always done a “kiss-kiss”- a double kiss to say hello or goodbye or goodnight. Its our thing 🙂 Or at least, was our thing. Alas, my boys all keep getting bigger and kissing mom
my in public isn’t what people do when they’re nine years old 🙂
Then I look at Ollie who now walks more and more confidently. Not only does he have fewer falls, he now argues with me. And this my friends- is awesome. If you’ve ever raised a deaf kid or a special needs kid, you know that arguing is an intellectual milestone and proves that there is lots of stuff going on in that head of theirs. Therefore as a side note- all parents can now rejoice when their kids argue with them because it shows that they have
A) Decided something for themselves
B) Learned to articulate it
C) Can now express themselves!
It’s AWESOME. And challenging. But SO AWESOME.
The leaps and bounds that Ollie has made since being an infant are more numerous than I could have ever expected. So for any parents out there getting horrible diagnosis’ about their babies… it’s an estimate. Watching special needs kiddos grow and develop is a really special gift.
I look at my family and reevaluate. Taylor doesn’t need kisses at school. Ollie doesn’t need his wheelchair very often and can articulate his thoughts better and better every day. Henry boy… at three years old signs “myself” throughout the day. As much as I am delighted that ASL is just as much a part of his language as spoken english is, I realize that often he doesn’t need me… he can do everything… himself!
And then I wonder… what am I going to do when they’re all big and all gone?
And then I panic and start thinking of jobs I could take or money I could make right now.
And then I cry about how big they’re all getting and how fast it’s going. And then Facebook shows me videos from three years ago which confirms that my feelings are in fact true- time IS going fast.
So then I slow my roll. And I take a stroll with Henry and I sit with the kids when there is laundry to be folded and computer work to be done. And I play games I don’t even want to play (Batman has never really done it for me). And I breathe and I sit and I soak it aaaaaaaall in.
The days aren’t perfect. And at times I wish them away. But today I’m going to slow down and enjoy this space in time. I can’t believe how fast this is going and I wish time would stop. I’m sure there will be things in the future that I wish I could just hit the pause button in as well- so all in all…. this journey is going to be great and fun and exciting and challenging and full of growth. The years ahead will be amazing too.
But today is just one day. I’m going to try to soak up my kids and smother them with kisses and simply enjoy. Maybe at home I can get that “kiss-kiss” 🙂
What would you do with your kids today if you could do anything for just an hour or two?
I hope you enjoy 🙂